It just seems to keep coming around every corner. I do apologize for not blogging for the last couple of months. I've fallen off the blogging wagon for a bit. But, I'm hoping to get back to it as much as I can. You know, starting my last semester at TCU this week has gotten me thinking. I've been through the book of James a lot, whether it was through a bible study, or in church. There is always something new to find in James.
"Now listen, you who say, 'Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money.' Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, 'If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that.' As it is, you boast and brag. All such boasting is evil. Anyone, then, who knows the good he ought to do and doesn't do it, sins."
This passage seems quite relevant to my life lately. I'm a graduating senior, I'm going to have to find a job, I have to pass the NCLEX...I could go on. We all have plans of what we're doing. I, for one, have a tentative plan right now. We have a plan for everything in our life whether that be related to relationships, school, career plan, siblings, marriage, kids. There are also more serious thoughts such as we plan to outlive our parents or that we plan to not ever have cancer. It's a never-ending cycle. Sometimes those plans are interrupted. It's funny, I read the above passage in my bible and below the chapter I had written "thinking your plan is God's plan is wrong". How many times do we assume that our plan is God's plan? Well, God wants the best for me, this is what I want to do, of course He's going to help make it happen. I just hope it's in His plan. I hope He goes along with it. The frustration comes along when our plan doesn't work out and then the confusion starts. I do this all the time. For example, after graduation I want to go back to Colorado. I eventually want to end up working with children and their families who deal with Type 1 Diabetes as a nurse practitioner. That's in my plan. I sure do hope that's in God's plan as well. Nothing has pointed me towards "no" in the past year. But I don't know if that's going to change at the last minute. I can plan and strategize all I want, but the fact is, I don't know what God has planned for my future. All I know is that God gave me Type 1 Diabetes for a reason. God put me into nursing for a reason. Hopefully he has me pass the NCLEX the first time around for a reason. Haha okay, well, that's MY hope. It's almost like we are in our own little fishbowl of a world planning away when there are endless possibilities outside of that bowl. Anyway, this all leads into saying that God will provide. That's hard to remember when things don't go "according to plan". Or, when things don't go according to OUR plan. God doesn't make wrong moves. I'm going to try and remember that concept as my senior year progresses into its last semester. Thanks for reading!